Thursday, December 31, 2009

Fresh Snow = Traffic Jams, Not Jamz

Various websites had different predictions in weather for today in the North Jersey / New York area.  Some said chance of snow.  Others said snow/sleet or "freezing rain."  All were 100% certain.  


I normally give myself an hour to get to work so I can pick up some cafe con crema y azucar.  Today I did nothing out of the ordinary.  On the way to work it started to snow.  It was very slippery and I saw one car spin out.  As I drove slowly around the car with my emergency blinkers on I thought for a second get off the freeway and use your GPS to take surface streets to work.  Then I looked at the freeway ahead, saw no one, and proceeded, slowly enough.  0.7 miles from my work the road came to a standstill.  The traffic was so bad that it took me 2 hours to move 0.2 miles.  Let me emphasize that.  It took me 2 hours to move 0.2 miles!  So I left at 7:30am and clocked in at 12:30pm.  


My advice is when it first starts snowing don't continue to drive 90mph+.  It's not safe and chances are you will cause massive traffic jams for everyone trying to get to work.

So in the end, it was a terrible car accident, not the snow, that made me late for work.  Well I guess the snow was the result, or reckless driving.  You decide.  Almost every major roadway in the area had accidents and was congested due to the "snow."  There were no traffic problems coming home and the bubby spoiled be with his delicious salads and homemade Rhode Island style CALAMARI!  I'm a lucky girl. 

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

"My Boyfriend Thought He Was a Porn Star"

I found this article from Marie Claire magazine to be pretty accurate.  Stop watching porn boys and get in touch with your senses (and ours).  
To be a sexual being is to break patterns, follow a pleasurable tangent, and use every nerve, not just the erogenous ones.
No wonder girls fake orgasms!  But this opens a whole new can of worms that I don't have the time nor energy to address.

Read the article here: My Boyfriend Thought He Was a Porn Star

Saturday, December 26, 2009

LATISSE

I was given a few bottles of Latisse, which is a product that is FDA approved to help eyelashes grow longer and thicker, to help make my own lashes grow.  The product claims that growth can be seen in 8 weeks with full results seen in 10-12 weeks of nightly use.  I'm one of those people that has to try everything and believe it or not I feel like I already see a difference. And that is seen with 2 weeks of use and nights of forgetting to apply the product.  If you don't believe me, check this picture out:

The person in this picture uses Lumigan, aka generic Latisse, in one eye (viewers right) to help lower her eye pressure since she has glaucoma.  If you can see in the picture, the eyelashes on the right side are much longer than those pictured on the left.  Once upon a time before she had surgery in her left eye (viewers right), she applied Lumigan in that eye, and those eyelashes were just as long.  The proof is in use and in the picture!

I will continue to chronicle my journey with Latisse.  Interesting to note that if Latisse enters your eye it can result in the following side effects: 
  • Itching and redness, which are supposed to subside with taking breaks of the treatment and continued use.  
  • Possible darkening of the eyelid, especially in dark skinned people.  This, however, may be reversible.  
  • Possible darkening of the iris.  This most likely will be permanent.  
  • Extra hair growth around the eyes or skin that Latisse comes in contact with.  Suggestion: Apply as directed.  

Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas Eve Dinner

The boyfriend traditionally does not eat meat on Christmas Eve.  Never wanting to be one to break tradition of any sort (unless it has direct harm to myself or my feelings), I wanted to make a meal that would carry on this no meat policy.  The solution was an array of veggie and seafood appetizers, and lots of them.  Unfortunately I did not get good pictures because it was dark and I used an iPhone, but I will try and post better pics at a later time.  

Here is my mother's two dishes.  She made a salmon dip spread and canelli beans in endive.  I will get her recipe upon request.  

I made marinated asparagus, because frankly you need your greens.  I blanch the asparagus in boiling water until they turn bright green (about 3-5 minutes).  Then I cover then in drizzled olive oil, balsamic, salt and pepper to taste, and top it off with shaved parmesan-reggiano cheese.  It is delicious and really lives up asparagus.


This is a picture of Seared Scallops with Garlic Parsley Butter (click here for recipe) was personally my favorite dish of the evening.  It was very easy to make and was definitely 5 stars worthy.  It was categorized as an appetizer, but despite getting huge succulent scallops, this easily could have been an elegant entree.  And the yukon gold potato puree that accompanies it is literally easy, delicious mashed potatoes.  

This is a picture of all the other dishes we ate.  

  • Sizzling Sherry Shrimp with Garlic - Very easy to make.  Use some crusty bread to soup up the oil and garlic sauce.  4/5 stars (Click here for recipe)
  • Absolutely Amazing Ahi - An OMG it was amazing!  We purchased sushi grade ahi and despite forgetting the cucumbers, this recipe was out of this world! 5/5 stars. If others didn't see you making this dish, they would think it was purchased at a fancy Japanese restaurant.  (Click here for recipe) 
  • Jalapeno Popper Wontons - My poppers definitely did not come out like the picture in the recipe, but they were delicious and the dad could not get enough of them.  Neither could I.  This was my first time deep frying and I used an electric fry pan.  Easiest dish of the night and 4/5 stars alone 4.5/5 with the sweet chili dipping sauce.  (Click here for recipe)

Did you really think I wouldn't make a dessert?  Puhlease.  I made the Malt Shop Ice Cream Pie on the 23rd and put the finishing touches together on Christmas Eve.  This was to ensure that the ice cream pie would in fact become a solid entity.  And oh boy did it.  Easier than I thought and everyone had seconds.  (Click here for recipe)  


The boyfriend stated it was the best Christmas Eve meal he has ever had.  Anything for the birthday boy!  

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Great game, even better book - Recommendations

My go to game is Apples to Apples.  It's a great game for kids and adults alike, although I find it more fun when the adults play this one.   However there is a new kid in town taking Apples to Apples spotlight and that game is Smart Ass.  It is the self proclaimed "ultimate trivia game" for the inpatient and overanxious.  You think you know who, what, or where the answer is as clues are read out?  Well, then by all means yell it out.  But if you get it wrong, forfeit any other chances to guess the answer.  It truly is a fun game testing how much you know and teaching you along the way.  


I just finished The Weight of Silence by Heather Gudenkauf and it is one of the best books I have read to this day.  The short preview of the book is about two girls who go missing.  Both are best friends.  One talks, the other is a selective mute.  Did they go together or separate?  Why did they leave?  If they didn't run off into the forest to play, then who took them?  Each chapter is told from each of the main characters point of the view.  Great character development and storyline.  READ IT!    

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Anthony Bourdain's Mushroom Soup

Anthony Bourdain's mushroom soup from his Les Halles Cookbook is something I definitely have to rave about.  It's easy to prepare,  even easier to make, and tastes 5 star worthy.  The most grueling chore of this soup is slicing the onions. 

Even though Anthony Bourdain is food god, I use a suggestion from Kalyn's Kitchen and add dried mushrooms, reconstituted in water.  My personal choice is chanterelles, but since mushrooms can get expensive go with what you can afford.  (I buy about 1 oz. or more depending on the audience.)

So if you are going to try making Bourdain's delicious soup I highly recommend following everything he says, but reconstituting the mushrooms first and then throwing the dried mushrooms in with the chicken stock.  I've had the soup both ways, and the later is even more superb, if you can imagine that.  Thank you Kalyn!  And don't forget lot's of salt and pepper.  You need the salt to balance the sweetness of the sherry.  (And I'm a salt-a-phobe.)

Kalyn's Kitchen Double Mushroom Soup (Inspired by Bourdain) 

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Elephant birth

This video is graphic, but it is one of the most amazing things I have ever seen.  An elephant gives birth to her baby and then revives the infant elephant until it takes it's first breath, etc.  Instinct is incredible.  Click here to watch.  

Snow

This is seriously beautiful.

 I perhaps could get use to snow.  (I never said anything about the cold now.)

My first snow in New Jersey!

I've been in snow a few times.  When I say few I probably mean less than 20.  Have I ever seen the start of snow fall?  Absoletely not.  Does it excite me?  You better believe it!  The boyfriend told me it was supposed to snow this evening so when it started to snow earlier in the day I was very excited.  

The "snow," however was quite wet, and the ground was not cold enough for it to stick*, so the picture simply looks like rain reminants. 
     *I'm learning the terms people.
Then what do you know?  I come out of the gym a few hours later to see this:

Now that snow is sticking!  To the ground, to cars, to bushes.  Hell, it's even sticking to me.  I was tempted to make snow angels, but one must always think of safety.  A dark parking lot is not safe children.  I think I'm in for a treat.  A scary treat, but a treat nonetheless. 

And yes I made it home without harming my self, another, or any property. 

One of the best commercials evAR!

More than 79% of Americans feel "the most significant family or social problem facing America is the physical absence of the father from the home." 
Don't be a statistic papas!  Be like this dad:

Friday, December 4, 2009

I literally teared


Jason sent me this one.  I think he connected with the video because he wakes himself up with his explosive farts. 

Friday, November 20, 2009

D.O.A.

Ya it's just Violent

Jay-Z is the man (and not just because he is married to a great VIRGO...Beyonce!)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Tie Tie

I have been neglecting writing.  I started a new job and I simply am too tired at night to do anything, but sit next to the bub while we take turns playing Guitar Hero, watching Dog the Bounty Hunter, a murder/detective themed show, or pretending to watch something while I'm secretly falling asleep.  My commute is far less than it was at my previous job, but one must still factor in the 2 hour commute and 7 hours of standing on my feet while wearing fitness shoes.  The benefit of the physically grueling job is that I get a 1 hour lunch break.  That is simply, unheard of in my profession.  To further elicit the effects of walking and standing all day I wear my Reebok EasyTone fitness shoes while at work and then always try to get some form of exercise after my shift, whether it be personal training or cardio on my own.  All these factors together contribute to my fatigue. 



Personal training is still awesome.  I have a hard time always motivating myself, especially when it comes to doing something other than cardio.  And weights?  What is this concept?  So to be positively pushed and see and feel results is further motivation to make me want to work stronger and harder.  After my sessions are over, I feel like I can take away a lot of what I learned and continue pushing myself on my own.  If I get in a rut, so be it.  I know who to call...P-E-R-S-O-N-A-L T-O-R-T-U-R-E-S.  


Those shoes.  Those ridiculous shoes.  I know Reebok EasyTone's look bizarre, but if you go to Reebok.com you can costume color and design your very own EasyTone's.  I constantly get compliments from both my patient's, but mostly their husbands telling me how much they like my kicks, asking me what they are, and where to get them.  Justine is always ahead of the trend, old lady trend.  Respect.  On a serious note, I swear my these shoes.  They don't look as ridiculous as other fitness shoes and you really do feel a difference in your legs (and I imagine your abs, but I have strong abs already), especially when you where them for an 8 hour shift.  I don't think my legs have ever looked better, but this could also be a combination of the EasyTone's and Personal Training.  Regardless, if you do a lot of walking, I highly recommend this awesome invention. 

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

I love how the hardest question I'll have to ask for the next 3 weeks is which color scrubs?  Bright ass yellow, migraine inducing mirage, plain green, etc.  Poor me. 

I sometimes, LOVE, being a nurse!

Saturday, November 7, 2009


"I listened to my dad tell stories about my mom, and I've read book and I just really believe in love, and no matter how fleeting or tragic I just really, really believe in it. I'm 18 years old and I just want to surrender." 
- Dreamland

Friday, November 6, 2009

Review: SUN Laboratories • Ultra Dark Lotion


This is my current favorite sunless tanner.  It is by no means perfect, but it does the job. The Ultra Dark Lotion gives you a deep, dark, olive tan.  With one application I look like I've gone on vacation even in the height of winter. Many people say to use rubber gloves with this product, but I don't because I find it too hard to rub it in.  If it's not rubbed in you will look blotchy.  I cannot wear this lotion in bed over night.  The smell is horrid.  I always wash it off after 3-4 hours.  Much of the product will come in the shower since the tint you initially see is for application purposes. 

I think this product is affordable for how much you get.  Many of the larger Bed, Bath, and Beyond's that carry beauty products have this so you can save 20% on a bottle with a coupon.  Still cheaper than tanning. 

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Jason and his daily facebook inspiration quotes: Whether you think you can or think you can't, you're probably right. 

Well it's not Jason, it's a Henry Ford original, but the message rings true.  The power of though can be both liberating and inspiring, or debilitating. 

I believe in signs.  I will think more positive.  Thanks Jason. 

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Do It Yourself - Drug Interactions

This is a great website from drugs.com to check to see if your medications interact with each other.  Drug-drug interactions can pose negative consequences or reduce the efficacy of other medications (certain meds with birth control), have a synergistic effect (two meds making your blood pressure drop too low), etc.  Thus it's very important to know how your medications interact.  This includes all over the counter (OTC) meds as well.  Make sure to add all your medications to observe for any potential interactions.  I was surprised that upon getting new medications today no one discussed this with me.  Further, if you scroll further down the website will tell you drug-food interactions, which are also very important.
I'm exhausted, in more ways then one.  


I'm also not surprised and was waiting for this.  


You put yourself into situations.  So my advice, make sure they are really nice, cause one day everything changes.  Ta da...and the curtain rises.  


Let's watch the show. 

Monday, November 2, 2009


It's been years since I have lifted weights regularly.  Further, more time has elapsed since I have had an actually 1 on 1 training session with a personal trainer.  When my new gym offered to give me a free personal training session, I reluctantly accepted.  I don't want someone telling me, run faster chubster.  (That's not what happened in the least.)  I worked muscles I never knew existed and those that I thought I had lost the ability to utilize years ago.  After my session I felt so refreshed and strong.  While I was slightly sore that day, I was definitely sore one day after and really sore two days post training session.  I'm talking soreness to the point of having a difficult time walking.


What I found doing some online research is that many people new to lifting will be sore two days after working out.  This is a sign that you worked hard enough for your body to grow stronger.  So sometimes, pain is a good thing.  Your body is strong and your body is working!  (What the pain is is the build up of lactic acid which is the fuel your muscles use when they need energy.)

The best advice I found to deal with this pain is to workout the next day, even if it is using a different muscle group.  Also, within one hour of your workout eat a potassium rich fuel low in sugar such as a banana.  And drink lots of H20.  


Here's to a happy and healthy life! 

Thursday, October 29, 2009

This is a bad time to try to find a job in my line of work.  I'm exhausted.  It feels like all I do is apply to jobs and have no leads.  I know in reality I haven't been looking that long, but I feel like I've put a lot of effort in my search already.  Blah!  Sad face. 

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

The Fruitcake Lady Tells It Like It Is - Funny Compilation

Jason's says this is going to be at 94.  She's awesome!  



Show image location, iPhones

iPhones.  Many of us have them.  More of us would love to have them.  But maybe they aren't as great as we think.  One feature on the iPhone I definitely would prefer not to have is "Show Image Location."  Are you following?

Alright, say you are taking a picture.  Before you taking the picture a screen pops up asking if you would like to use your current location?  

Now I have never clicked "OK" before and accidently last night I did.  Not thinking anything of it, I was shocked to learn this morning that instead of the picture I had intended to post online, there was a pinpoint on a map that literally showed where I live.  That is scary on many levels.  The picture looked something like the following:

How you can turn off this feature so you don't have to worry about such an incident happening to you is to go to the main Menu. Select:
  • Setting
  • General
  • Location Service
  • Switched the tab off
Viola!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Sunless tanner reviews: Bain de Soleil Radiance Eternelle and Sun Giesee's Ultra Dark Self Tanning Aerosol Spray

The boyfriend doesn't like it when I lay under those amaZING artifical lights and have the best 12 minutes of sun therapy, so I am on a mission to find the best sunless tanner on the market. 

Bain de Soleil Radiance Eternelle: The stuff dreams are made of...

I used to buy this discontinued brand sometimes as low as $3.99 on sale at drugstore.com.  $3.99 from $17.  Those were the good old days.  I could stock up, literally fill up my cabinets, and know that I was going to have a hot, sexy glow for months to come. I personally like looking like Malibu beach Barbie ever chance I get.  No it's homer simpson Barbie, but I will find a tanning lotion!  Anyway...

No one could tell that this tan came from a bottle.  Over the years I've recommended this lotion to others who have also jumped on the bandwagon and then some genius at Bain de Soleil decided they would discontinue the golden child and keep the other tanning lotions that turn you orange.  If I wanted to look orange, I'd stick with Neutrogena.  You can still find this wonderful lotion, which comes in Medium-Dark and Dark (don't bother with Light-Medium) online, but it will now set you back $49.99 on Ebay or $61.95 + on Amazon.  Yes, that is for 1 bottle.  Like, I said, this artificial crap was amazing.  I happen to have 3 bottles left.  Be jealous, very jealous. 
Verdict: Pure awesomeness...IF you can get your hands on a bottle

Sun Giesee's Ultra Dark Self Tanning Aerosol Spray (Dark):
This is supposed to be a revolutionary tanning product since you can spray yourself "evenly all over...without ever having to rub it in."  Talk about gimmick gone wrong.  You can spray your whole body, but you are covered in dark patches.  Regardless if you follow the directions and spray 6 inches away, the dark splotches result.  Now you have to get your hands dirty and rub in the mess and no matter how much you try to scrub this chemical off it is there to stay.  So say hello to hobo hands (and feet unless you are really careful).  It's also very hard to try to color the backs of your hands once you have finally cleaned your palms.  While the color that developes is nice and dark (olive like), I just find this product to messy and complicated compared to other products out there.  
Verdict:  Just don't bother


Stay tuned for : Sun Giesee's Ultra Dark Self Tanning Instant Tint (Dark)

Monday, October 26, 2009

It is as absurd to say that a man can't love one woman all the time as it is to say that a violinist needs several violins to play the same piece of music.

My weekly horoscope

You may be feeling the joys of Saturn leaving your sign this week. The last few years of dishevel are now behind you. There are lovely relationship aspects for you mid week bringing a fresh perspective to old problems. Opportunities are now around for a new romance to blossom into something more. Communications are now open again. Contacts with others which have been blocked are now firmly re-established. You may wish to put off a bit longer any changes to career. Give yourself time to just enjoy yourself and breath again.
Clearly I like it and knew that everything was about to change for the better.  

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

The eyes are the window to the soul.
This quote is now a well known proverb.  It traces back to the bible and even further back to Cicero.  Shakespeare and modern musicians take inspiration from this.  But what does it mean?  


I have no idea what my soul looks like, nor that of another.  I could perhaps tell you my aurora, but we're talking souls here.  Sometimes we walk down the street and we make eye contact for a brief moment.  Nothing.  Other times we look into another's eyes and are fixated in a strong hold.  It can be comforting, chilling, loving, tender, lust inducing ... there are a magnitude of emotions and feelings that can takeover you. On occasion you get lucky and this hold is so consuming you can't break contact.  You could gaze into those eyes forever.  Eyes intertwined, pupils aligned, every spec, dot, character emphasized.  There is everything you need to know in those eyes and lots of learning that could follow.  You're not reading their soul, their inner thoughts or makings.  What you can decipher is whether they are friend, lover, or foe.  All that without words. 

*Spoiler* Shopgirl Ending

I desperately searched for clips of my 3 favorite quotes from Shopgirl, but nothing.  
 
The premise of the movie is a young woman falls in love with an older man who cannot open his heart to her, or presumably anyone. And the story goes...

So I can hurt now or hurt later. Now I guess.
Utter sadness verbalized by Mirabelle as she realizes that no matter how much she loves Ray , being with him will only cause her anguish.  And so she leaves...
Some nights alone he thinks of her. And some nights alone she thinks of him. Some nights these thoughts occur at the same moment. And Mirabelle and Ray are connected without ever knowing it...
The quote is longer, however this is the important aspect.  Ray searches for Mirabelle in the women he meets and ends up content in his discontent.  However, Mirabelle, has presumably found reciprocal love, respect, and adoration with another who is more willing and able than Ray could ever be.  


And my favorite quote  accompanied by a prefacing clip is of the ending.  The following quote is words spoken as Ray Porter watches Mirabelle walk away to the arms of her lover and realizes the consequences of his choices:  

As Ray Porter watches Mirabelle walk away he feels a loss. How is it possible, he thinks, to miss a woman whom he kept at a distance so that when she was gone he would not miss her. Only then does he realize that wanting part of her and not all of her had hurt them both and how he cannot justify his actions except that... well... it was life.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Dreams are children of idle brain, begot of nothing but vain fantasy, which is as thin a substance as air and more inconstant than the moon.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

It's a Jay Sean themed station day on Pandora.  He is the most amaZING thing I have encountered since coming to New Jersey.  Watch out America.  This Punjab is taking over with the catchiest song and pretty funny music video.  Check out "Down" ft. Lil Wayne here

I am also extremely excited since my parentals are coming to see me today!  Woot woot.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

A beautiful relationship does not depend upon how good we understand someone, but on how well we avoid misunderstandings. 

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

The new Post Secret book comes out on October 6 and I couldn't be more excited.  These books are great.  Happy, hilarious, sometimes sad and tragic, but almost always real and that I gravitate towards.  I hadn't been keeping up with my Post Secret reading so warning, you may see a few in the immediate future.  My two favorites of the moment.
A recent secret from last Sunday I believe:

A secret handed to Frank at a recent post secret event:

If that isn't romantic then I don't know what is. 
"Amore, amore, amoreeeeee!"


Tuesday, September 29, 2009


 Follow your heart, but be quiet for a while first. Ask questions, then feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart.
 And hydrate. 

Bacon Mac with Green Onions


Yield: 6 Servings (approximately 1 cup)
Side note: Prep everything in advance. Once the pasta begins boiling start the sauce.  The milk takes longer than anticipated to boil

Ingredients:
  • 3 1/4  teaspoons  salt, divided
  • 12  ounces  whole wheat penne pasta
  • 4  teaspoons all-purpose flour
  • 1 1/2  cups  skim milk, divided
  • 2  cups finely shredded sharp cheddar cheese, divided (I like the New Zealand Extra Sharp Cheddar Cheese from Trader Joe's)
  • 1/4  cup  sliced green onions or Chives
  • 1  teaspoon  hot sauce (the spicer, the better)
  • 1/4  teaspoon  pepper
  • 2  slices center-cut bacon, cooked and crumbled
  • Cooking spray
 The How To:
1. Preheat broiler.
2. Bring 6 quarts water and 1 tablespoon salt to a boil. Add pasta; cook 8 minutes or until al dente; drain.
3. Combine flour and 1/2 cup milk in a saucepan over medium heat. Gradually add 1 cup milk; bring to a boil. Cook 1 minute, stirring constantly. Remove from heat; let stand 4 minutes or until it cools to 155°. Stir in 1 1/2 cups cheese. Add 1/4 teaspoon salt, onions, hot sauce, pepper, and bacon; stir. Add pasta; toss. Spoon into a 2-quart broiler-safe dish coated with cooking spray; top with 1/2 cup cheese. Broil 7 minutes.


Side note: Since I forgot to put the chives in during set 3 we blended them in the magic bullet with the remaining 1/2 cup of cheese that needed to be grated.  This made like cream cheese like consistency that was delicious and that I put on chunks of the pasta concoction to be broiled.  The finished product will not be green on top if you follow the above directions. 

Cooking is like love. It should be entered into with abandon or not at all.  
- Harriet Van Horne


Monday, September 28, 2009

Thou art to me a delicious torment.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Lazy Sunday

Step on it sucka!!!


Mr. Pibb + Red Vines = Crazy Delicious!

Friday, September 25, 2009

Proof

My best friend tried to explain in proof why the Yankees are the best baseball team:
derek jeter has herpes
therefore
yankees > eveything
because herpes > eveyrthing
Oh Jason Chen, what would I do without your cunning logic gracing my life?

The answer children, is die.  

Thursday, September 24, 2009

When relationships are in a state of standstill or decline, confusion and disorder prevail. Inferior elements are on the rise, while the powers of clarity and creativity are on the decline. In such times, the wise take shelter in their own integrity and quietly remain faithful to their highest selves.

During periods of stagnation, our lower nature can easily rise to power.  Concentrate on your personal affairs with a quiet dignity, even if that means forfeiting short-term rewards.

Desiring to change a situation too quickly often creates extra conflict. By accepting hardship, while striving to maintain integrity, you are preparing for future growth. "A seed of prosperity is often hidden inside the husk of misfortune."

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be. 
~ Anna Louise Strong
When you find someone that loves you and supports you, nurture all elements of the relationship.  Be kind to yourself and be kind to your partner.  Experience joy, laugh together, overcome fear, forgive, fight for your beliefs, teach each other and grow. 

I think fear is huge obstacle in life, but just because something is scary doesn't mean one should quit.  People may be scared to become the person they want to be or scared when they see another changing.  However, if you love someone, go with it.  If it's meant to be it can only be good. 

I think this is truly a brilliant quote. 

I have always been one to believe in positive affirmations.  I liked what this person promised to do in 2009:
I resolve to…
  • * pick my battles and avoid sweating the small stuff.
  • * focus on the positive in my relationship.
  • * stop blaming others when I am just as much at fault.
  • * stop making assumptions or judgments.
  • * stop saying negative thing about any of his family or friends (he can reach his own conclusions—my negative views do nothing for our relationship)."
I think this is good advice for anyone, and everyone to try and follow.  

Monday, September 21, 2009


Beautiful by Eminem
Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has their private world
Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me?
I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fucking depressed
I just can't seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump

I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
And in order for me to pick the mic back up

I don't know how or why or when
I ended up this position I'm in
I'm starting to feel dissin' again
So I decided just to pick this pen

Up and try to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit
Or come to grips with the fact that I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet

And I know some shit's so hard to swallow
But I can't just sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow but I know one fact
I'll be one tough act to follow

One tough act to follow
I'll be one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you'd have to walk a thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others' minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others' eyes

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you
So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything's so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check
The temperature of the room

Just as soon as I walk in, it's like all eyes on me
And so I try to avoid any eye contact
'Cause if I do that then it opens the door
For conversation, like I want that

I'm not looking for extra attention
I just wanna be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom

I don't need no fucking man servant
Trying to follow me around and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of 'em ain't even funny like

Ha! Marshall you're so funny man
You should be a comedian, god damn!"
Unfortunately I am
I just hide behind the tears of a clown

So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't gotta trade our shoes
And you ain't gotta walk no thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others eyes

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you
So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands we're dealt
We gotta take these cards ourselves
And flip 'em, don't expect no help

Now I could've either just sat on my ass
And pissed and moaned
Or take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own

I was never the type of kid
To wait by the door and pack his bags
I sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did

I just wanted to fit in
Every single place, every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid

And Edna always told me
Keep making that face and it'll get stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue tryna talk like that

'Til I stuck my tongue on that frozen stop sign pole
At 8 years old
I learned my lesson then
'Cause I wasn't trying to impress my friends no more

But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
'Cause where you see it, from where you're sittin
It's probably 110% different

I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each others shoes at least
What size you wear? I wear 10's
Let's see if you can fit your feet

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others eyes

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you
So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you

So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you
So

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has their private world
Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me?
I'm reaching out for you

Yeah, to my babies
Stay strong, daddy will be home soon

And to the rest of the world
God gave you shoes to fit you
So put 'em on and wear 'em
Be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny
Don't ever let anyone tell you you ain't beautiful
Michael: I'm in love with your daughter Stephen. Maybe that doesn't mean anything to you but I'm standing here. You are her father, I am looking you in the eyes and I'm telling you I will do anything in the world to get your daughter back.
Stephen: Really?
Michael: Really.
Stephen: Anything?
Michael: I'll do anything.
Stephen: People say that, they don't mean it.
Michael: But I mean it!
Stephen: Well it's very simple... do whatever it takes.
Michael: It's that simple?
Stephen: Yes... you can't fail if you don't give up.

Friday, September 18, 2009

A thought to consider

Live as you feel like, not as you think you should live like. Your feelings are seldom wrong, because you are designed to feel a certain way
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you that they love you you're gonna believe them
One lesson I wish I had learned a long time ago: Don't believe everything people tell you.  Applies at fifteen.  Applies a decade later.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

The Big Texan

My new profile pic was taken after consuming a glorious meal of chicken fried steak at The Big Texan in Amarillo, TX during the road trip with the boyfriend.  
The limo with the steers is the free limo that takes you to the restaurant if you stay at any of the hotels / motels in the fine city of Amarillo.  
The food was awesome, the challenge was fun to watch, the atmosphere was lively and I would go back in a heartbeat.  For those of you who don't know, Adam Richman of Man vs. Food came here for a segment on his Amarillo episode and attempted the 72 oz challenge which consists of eating 72 ounces of steaks with a side of baked potato, dinner roll, salad, and shrimp cocktail.  
That's 6 lbs of food in 1 hour.  Adam Richman was able to finish it, but the man we saw attempt to beat the mean piece of meat did not. 
The rain has started in the New York area.  Or presumably so.  The forecast says that it will be overcast tomorrow and this weekend I am going away to sunshine and hot tubs and land of hills and glute workouts! But never fear...Justine brought her Buddha umbrella.  No sad faces when they see this ray of light! 

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I know this is a really stupid thing to feel a little butt hurt about, but the only people that called me to wish me a happy birthday were my family.  My besties didn't even call me and that really hurts.  I chose to move in my own direction.  I can't fault anyone for doing the same.  Still hurts. 

Monday, September 14, 2009

Remember, there's no way to take your words back once spoken aloud, so think twice before you start wagging your tongue.



"Nothing will work unless you do.” - Maya Angelou 

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Half Carafe

Pauline's Pizza Pie is my favorite pizza place in San Francisco and quite possibly, the WORLD!  Not only do they have amaZING pizza, but how cute is their half craft of house red?
It's barely bigger than the size of a wine glass, comparable to a bottle of vinegar.  Once again, another exemplar for Pauline's awesomeness.  
Sometimes, the stupidity of people, is shocking.  


If you are disrespectful, don't think I won't call your bluff.  I'm not a doormat.  

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

My biggest faults in life are that I'm easily impressionable.  

My favorite random thoughts from people 25-35 yearsold

  1. A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.
  2. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent asshole from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!
  3. More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can't wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story that's not only better, but also more directly involves me.
  4. Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the "people you may know" feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?
  5. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to finish a text.
  6. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

A history lesson made fun

Next time you complain that it's raining cats and dogs or go to a June wedding and comment on the flowers (which probably cost thousands of dollars), you'll know something no one else around you does. Here are some enlightening facts from way back when:
 
People used to use urine to tan animal skins, so families used to all pee in a pot & then once a day it was taken & sold to the tannery.......if you had to do this to survive you were "Piss Poor." But worse than that were the really poor  folk who couldn't even afford to buy a pot...........they "didn't have a pot to piss in" and were the lowest of the low.
 
Most people got married in June because they took their yearly bath in May, and they still smelled pretty good by June. However, since they were starting to smell . .. . Brides carried a bouquet of flowers to hide the body odor. Hence the custom today of carrying a bouquet when getting married.
 
Baths consisted of a big tub filled with hot water. The man of the house had the privilege of the nice clean water, then all the other sons and men, then the women and finally the children. Last of all the babies. By then the water was so dirty you could actually lose someone in it. Hence the saying, "Don't throw the baby out with the Bath water!"
 
Houses had thatched roofs-thick straw-piled high, with no wood underneath. It was the only place for animals to get warm, so all the cats and other small animals (mice, bugs) lived in the roof. When it rained it became slippery and sometimes the animals would slip and fall off the roof. Hence the saying "It's raining cats and dogs."
 
There was nothing to stop things from falling into the house. This posed a real problem in the bedroom where bugs and other droppings could mess up your nice clean bed. Hence, a bed with big posts and a sheet hung over the top afforded some protection. That's how canopy beds came into existence.
 
The floor was dirt. Only the wealthy had something other than dirt. Hence the saying, "Dirt poor." The wealthy had slate floors that would get slippery in the winter when wet, so they spread thresh (straw) on floor to help keep their footing. As the winter wore on, they added more thresh until, when you opened the door, it would all start slipping outside. A piece of wood was placed in the entrance-way. Hence: a thresh hold.
  
In those old days, they cooked in the kitchen with a big kettle that always hung over the fire. Every day they lit the fire and added things to the pot. They ate mostly vegetables and did not get much meat. They would eat the stew for dinner, leaving leftovers in the pot to get cold overnight and then start over the next day. Sometimes stew had food in it that had been there for quite a while. Hence the rhyme: Peas porridge hot, peas porridge cold, peas porridge in the pot nine days old.
 
Sometimes they could obtain pork, which made them feel quite special. When visitors came over, they would hang up their bacon to show off. It was a sign of wealth that a man could, "bring home the bacon." They would cut off a little to share with guests and would all sit around and chew the fat.
 
Those with money had plates made of pewter. Food with high acid content caused some of the lead to leach onto the food, causing lead poisoning death. This happened most often with tomatoes, so for the next 400 years or so, tomatoes were considered poisonous.
 
Bread was divided according to status. Workers got the burnt bottom of the loaf, the family got the middle, and guests got the top, or the upper crust.
 
Lead cups were used to drink ale or whisky. The combination would sometimes knock the imbibers out for a couple of days. Someone walking along the road would take them for dead and prepare them for burial. They were laid out on the kitchen table for a couple of days and the family would gather around and eat and drink and wait and see if they would wake up. Hence the custom of holding a wake.
 
England is old and small and the local folks started running out of places to bury people. So they would dig up coffins and would take the bones to a bone-house, and reuse the grave. When reopening these coffins, 1 out of 25 coffins were found to have scratch marks on the inside and they realized they had been burying people alive. So they would tie a string on the wrist of the corpse, lead it through the coffin and up through the ground and tie it to a bell. Someone would have to sit out in the graveyard all night (the graveyard shift.) to listen for the bell; thus, someone could be, saved by the bell or was considered a dead ringer...

Saturday, August 29, 2009

I always loved Salt n Pepa

Thursday, August 27, 2009

People say I'm a bad driver, but today I watched a woman who looked both ways turn onto a one way street. A car honked at her and then she proceeded to park, if you will, long enough for me to:
  1. pull my iPhone out of my purse
  2. go to the camera application
  3. click "don't allow" current location to be known
  4. and then take a picture of her finally reversing from her present spot.
Then I crossed the street and giggled as I thought about how the majority of the population in my new home are of a certain ethnicity that tends to be stereotyped as being bad drivers (case in point), and how I no longer can be called the worse driver!