Positivity

I really do believe that good things happen to good people.  That if you think positive and work hard, you will be both benefited and rewarded.  It's the balance of life.  It makes sense after all. 

Truth

"Have you ever wanted something very badly then gotten it? Then you
know that winning is many things, but it is never the thing you
thought it would be."
- No One Belongs Here More Than You

Unthinkable (I'm Ready)

Without a doubt, my favorite song of the moment.  Alicia Keys is the woman.  

Moment of honesty

Someones gotta take the lead tonight
Whose it gonna be?
I'm gonna sit right here
And tell u while it comes to me
If u have something to say
U should say it right now

U give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I know I deserve it
Its become something that's impossible to ignore
And I can't take it
I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable will it make us look crazy
If you ask me I'm ready
If you ask me I'm ready

I know u said to me
"This is exactly how it should feel when its meant to be"
Time is only wasting so why wait for eventually
If we gonna do something about it
We should do it right now

U give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I know I deserve it
Its become something that's impossible to ignore
Its what we make it
I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable will it make us look crazy
Or would it be so beautiful either way I'm sayin
If you ask me I'm ready
If you ask me I'm ready

Why give up before we try
Feel the lows before the highs
Clip our wings before we fly away
I can't say I can't compare
I'm suspended it the air
Won't u come be in the sky with me

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable will it make us look crazy
Or would it be so beautiful either way I'm sayin
If you ask me I'm ready
If you ask me I'm ready

Beef Wellington

I may not have had any water last night, but never fear.  I was still able to make this mock Ground Beef Wellington with the help of my lovely assistant, aka the boyfriend.

It was pretty damn good.  Only thing I would change is I wouldn't use their suggestion to cover the Wellington in their mushroom sauce.  I would incorporate all the sauce with the meat mixture and then make a mushroom gravy.  Also I would add more mushrooms to the filling.  Once I figure out the best way to make this recipee the most tasty I will update. 

This recipee honestly was so easy and would be great for a nice dinner party.

Recipe here. 

Precious and Yes Man

Two very different types of movies, but boy did I enjoy both.


Precious is by far one of the saddest and moving movies I have seen in a long time.  I had high expectations for the this film and generally when I have high hopes I tend to be disappointed.  This film far surpassed my presumptions. 


The acting is phenomenal.  

• Gabourey Sidibe is amazing in her breakthrough role.  She is real and relatable and you just want to wrap her in your arms.
• Mo'Noique plays one of the most dispicable characters I have seen in a long time.  Her relationship with Precious and her monologue at the end of the film brought me to tears.  
• Paula Patton, who I initally thought was Alicia Keys (oops), is amazing.  She is tender, kind.  Who knew she could act? (Remember Deja Vu with Denzel Washinton?  That was her.)
• Ditto for Mariah Carey who plays the social worker so well.  She is in a role where she is not all done up as we are used to seeing her and she is amazing.  No one can give her shit for Glitter anymore.  
• RN John was great and what makes the acting by this character even sweeter was that he was played by THE Lenny Kravitz.  I was blown away.  I'm pretty sure this was Lenny's first time professionally acting and he's got skill.  From one RN to another, if even fictional, I love the murses.  

If you have not seen Precious, I highly recommend it.  You will not be disappointed.  


Yes Man, on the other hand, was a film I thought would be nothing special, yet I was happily surprised.  It was entertaining and hilarious.  It's definitely a good comedy choice.  One of the better ones I've seen in a long while.  

Men's eyes were meant to look. Let them gaze. I will not budge for no man's pleasure.

Love

I'm supposed to be working out, but sometimes, supposed to can go out the window.  I think I'm still working with this acceptance concept.  The more I think about it, or perhaps not think about it and go with it, the more at ease I am with the environment.  I'm less concerned about me and what I may fail to do, and certainly less annoyed my others and their short comings.  I am exactly the way I'm supposed to be.  I'm healthy.  I'm blessed by wonderful people who love and support me.  I have a job in a poor economy.  I'm in a loving and supportive partnership.  There are things to thank the universe for.  Time to the enjoy the ride. 

But this is not where I wanted to go with my post.  

Long story short, YouTube sent me an email about a video I had posted.  So I follow the links because why would I get a virus?  Thankfully, the email was legit.  I started searching for videos instead of doing abs because I wanted to find a video posted with better visual quality than mine.  The audio wasn't as good, but with slam poetry, the entire presentation is important.  This is one of my favorite poems ever.  EVER! 

Love by Beau Sia

This made me chuckle

A group of senior citizens were talking over the breakfast table in a nursing home. "My arms are so weak, I can hardly lift this cup of coffee," said the first.

"Yes, I know," agreed the second. "My cataracts are so bad I can't even see my coffee."

"I can't turn my head because of the arthritis in my neck," said a third, to which several nodded weakly in agreement.

"My blood pressure pills make me dizzy," another went on.

"I guess that's the price we pay for getting old," winced an old man as he slowly shook his head.

"Well, it's not all bad," said one woman cheerfully. "At least we can still drive!"         

Tip

Once you're comfortable being by yourself, you learn to be more at
ease with others.

Acceptance

I'm going to take baby steps.

Today's topic: Acceptance

People try to control everything and in reality we can influence very little.  We try to build damns and the elements cause them to break.  We care so much what others think of us, but  if you think about it for a moment, it's rather pointless.  You will never know what goes on in the head of another.  You cannot read their thoughts.  You can think you perceive their inner thinkings from what you observe, but the reality is you can never really know what they are thinking even if they tell you I am thinking _____________ (fill in the blank as you desire).  So if someone says, "I love you"  accept it to mean they have affection for you.  "I hate you," then perhaps they are angry.  Take it for what it is and nothing more. 

Another thing in terms of acceptance.  It's important to remember that no one can control you.  Too easily do we give up our control for others.  You control your thoughts and feelings.  You are responsible for them, no one else.  Be responsible for yourself, take accountability.  By the same token, do not try to control another.  When you try to take someone's power, you are giving up your own control.  You become obsessed with their inner thoughts, feelings, and actions and in turn you are giving up your own power and control.  Your own moves and thoughts become dictated by the perceived notions of another.  And once again, you don't ever really know what goes on in another person's head. 

I guess one would deviate from hear and discuss the need to trust all.  This is not the point I'm going to make.  I think it is important to learn to accept that all you really can control is yourself, so be the best person you can.  Don't be fake, don't be cruel or mean.  Be loving, be compassionate, respect nature, family, and loyalty.  Live by laws of personal integrity.  On a simple level trust another when they tell you something.  By the same token, it doesn't mean that you should let people control you or be naive.  Perhaps just take life as it comes.  Be smart. 

I've been feeling really low lately. I've been alternating between
feelings of anger, sadness, restentment, insecurity, etc. I'm giving
myself a month to find forgiveness, peace, and tranquility. Let the
growth begin...

Just because someone puts on the mask doesn't mean they are going to live up to the role.